| "But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more"
-In My Life
Thanksgiving
is upon us and I have many people and things to be thankful for. I
don't even know where to begin. But the way I'd like to begin is by
giving thanks for the people.
The people I want to talk about
are my top 8…I'll be posting this on other blogs but the people on
there who matter the most are on my top friends and just might read
this somewhere else.
So let's get started.
Cammie (CammaRetardedllama [Secret Magent 2]) -
Cammie is not just my sister, she's my best friend. She's 22 years old
now but she still thinks I'm cool and spends time with me. If I had a
nickel for every inside joke we have, I'd be the richest woman alive.
When I'm upset, she's got her arms around me and a wise word. When I
have a problem, she not only listens to me, but offers input. We might
turn the light off at midnight but we talk and laugh until 3 or 4. We
can laugh for like an hour and not quite remember why we started
laughing to begin with, unless we're in the car because then she'd just
have to pull over and calm down. :P I am so proud of her. She is so
smart and responsible and she is so capable of managing her life,
especially when hers certainly is not so smooth. She's been doing great
on her dieting and exercise and she looks beautiful. Without her, I'd
be screwed. She's the person I look up to most in the whole world and I
am truly thankful for her. Cammie, you are the bestest friend I could
have asked for.
Holly (No special name :P)
- Holly is also my sister and also my best friend. She's a grown-up
woman of 19 but simultaneously so very young and full of child-like
vivacity. Whether we're running and screaming through downtown
Sacramento, dancing on the light rail, posing with the bears in
Heavenly, walking to the corner store for Diet Coke or sobbing on each
other's shoulders pathetically near the end of Serenity…I can say I
definitely have the most memories with her. She educates me on the best
moves to make as I go through teenager hood and her experiences have
granted her wisdom beyond her years. She is totally unique and
sometimes I just see things and go "Only Holly would love that." There
is no one in the world quite like her. She lights up the room when she
walks into it with her unfailing joy and passion and love. She's
stubborn and hard-headed and it works. :P I love her so much. I am so
like her because throughout my life I have looked up to her and have
strove to be as much of a character as she is every day. Holly, you
have made my life full of sun. :)
Nora (Suika)
- ….plop. HAHAHA okay but seriously. When we were little, Nora and I
were the queens of fantasy. We'd turn her bedroom into a castle, her
into a dragon from far away land and I'd act the beautiful princess and
the tyrannical anti-dragon father/king all at the same time or she'd be
a gypsy sorceress and me an escaped princess disguised as a peasant.
The carpet could be a lava pit or the bedroom the middle of a deep and
frightening forest. Our barbies would be captured by captured by
Bionicles (XD) or we'd make a play dough habitat for our dinosaurs.
Well, it's been a time since then and we're no less imaginative and
exciting. What can I say about Nora? First of all, as a person, Nora is
extremely goodhearted and is very compassionate towards the people in
her life. She isn't full of herself or arrogant about her abilities but
she is extremely talented. I am always AMAZED by how quickly she picks
up on how to do new things well and I always feel quite second best in
comparison to her. :P We always have fun times, no matter what it is
we're doing. For God's sake…We went to the zoo last weekend. :P We
always make things fun with joking and goofing off and we can be
sitting around laughing like idiots until we feel sick for like 45
minutes, calm down and then we'll say like ONE THING and start laughing
again. I've learned a lot about her during these teenage years and
about how deep she is and how she takes things to heart. We've both
been through tough times but we always support each other, whether it's
just by listening to the other rant emo-ly and offering input or advice
or whether it's me going "THIS CALLS FOR AN OVERNIGHT" and probably
going over to her house because my house sucks. Nora is my fellow
musician, my isketch buddy, my writing critique, my favorite
adventurer, my vacation buddy, my art inspiration, my emotional
support, my best friend and basically my sister. Without her I'd have
such a lame life. :) I love you Nora. The world could do with more
girls like you…but really no one could ever compare.
Gwen (o gwen.)
- I met Gwen on neopets. Ssshhhh. But we started talking and I was
immediately attracted to how real she was. Gwen looks at life with such
sense and reality that she is the best person to come to for advice. I
can ask a million other people and then I'll come to her and she'll say
something TOTALLY different that just slaps me in the face and wakes me
up to what I really need to understand. She's beautiful and strong and
amazing and even when she doesn't know what to do or how to help she
still does her best and it always works. She always shows me love, no
matter what. It kills me when she's feeling sad or weak and I won't
ever know just what to do except offer her my love because she is
extraordinary. She's beautiful and intelligent and she's an amazing
writer and is so passionate about what she believes. I was blessed I
just happened to meet her that day on the forums…she means the world to
me. I love you, Gwen.
Natasha (Natasha [Loves Karim])
- When I first met Natasha, we got in a fight. XD I offered some advice
and she didn't want to take it and she was mad at me for being so
self-righteous. Well, although I was annoyed, I really admired her
refusal to be told what to do. I really admire a good, stubborn person
and she was certainly acting like a mule. XD <3 Well I turned out to
be right and we made up and ever since then we've been great friends.
Natasha is very generous. I know Gaia can't tell you exactly what a
person is like but I have full faith that in real life she's as willing
to help her friends out as she is on Gaia. She's very loyal and always
ready to make me smile. She's adorable and energetic and she is
constantly ready to do something new or exciting and have some fun. We
are the original founders of the Single and Lonely Club on Gaia. XD She
sends me fun mail and makes me happy drawings. She's my buddy. <3 I
love ya, Natasha, and someday I'm going to hop in someone's suitcase at
the airport and come to Florida so I can hug you.
Kristen (farm girl in the suburbs)
- Kristen is my cousin and my great friend. This girl lights up the any
room she walks into with her smile and her laughter and her energy.
She's quick to tease but also quick to finish it off with a hug and a
smile. She's one of the most individual people you'll ever meet…you
will never ever find anyone quite like her. In the past few years
especially, I have learned what a great listener she is. I remember at
Tahoe on the Fourth of July I got really upset about some family
problems and left the dock crying and she took me into the lodge and we
talked for like an hour. She hugged me and listened to me and offered
her wisdom and helped me work things out. She has the energy and life
of a child but she has the compassion and wisdom and vision of life of
a true woman. She can brighten your day with just a simple smile. She
reminds me in many ways of Spring….New and beautiful and warm and sunny
and full of color. Whether she's driving me around Sacramento madly
trying to find Hiram Johnson so I can get to symphony on time or
jumping me out of my bed telling me I'm the coolest cousin ever for
jumping in the lake with her at 8 o' clock in the morning, she brings
this spark into my life and I am proud to be related to her. Kristen,
you truly make my world a brighter place and I love you and hope I can
do the same for my friends.
Nathan (Nathan Goldman)
- I met Nathan in 7th grade when I was having a very hard time trying
to figure out who I was after a rough-and-tumble 6th grade year where I
tried to be someone I was not. He introduced me to so many things,
mostly music, that really made me who I am. The Illemonati as a whole
did a lot of that, but Nathan was my late-night chatting buddy, my
confidante and my first love. I admire him so much for his intellect,
his talent in writing and music, his wit and his extreme individuality.
I am thankful for the late night talks and texting and phone calls. I
am thankful for all of the postwhoring on the forum. xD I am thankful
for Frying Mozart. I am thankful for the honest advice on my writing
endeavors. I am thankful for all of the bad recordings he listened to
for me. :P I am thankful for all of the Les Miserables rants he put up
with and his open-mindedness to my spiritual beliefs. I am thankful for
the support he always provided when I was being torn apart by nerves
before auditions or performances. I am thankful for the bowbows. I am
thankful for the gigglesnorts. I am thankful for so much. Mostly I'm
glad for the friendship he gave me through the toughest times in my
life and that thing he introduced me to called love. I still love him
but now it's a different kind of love…A care for a very good friend.
Thank you for helping me find myself, Nathan, and for always being
there for me through the best and worst of times. I love you.
Jordan (xSlit [Your Own Throat]x)
- Jordan is super cool. We've been friends since 6th grade and we've
made lots of memories. To begin with, we began "The Rectangle" which
was a table in the cafeteria that consisted of us on the ends and a
small group of people who always joined us and upon which no strangers
ever attempted to trespass. We went to the Gay Pride Parade together
and she carried an amazing rainbow flag and it was fantastic and the
drag queens blew us kisses. :P She listened to me mope and whine about
my heartbreak all summer and has offered support and advice through all
of my romantic endeavors. I am thankful every day for having a super
cool, funny and supportive friend. She's coolness in a box. <3 Love
ya, Jordan!
I want to give a special thanks for the Illemonati.
They are a group of fans of Lemon Demon who I met on the Lemon Demon
forums and they are amazing. Each one of them is so unique and
individual and they are constantly introducing me to new things. They
are the best people to talk to when I'm feeling down because someone is
always around to say something that just…works. Whether I'm derailing
threads with HC, marrying Mindy, playing my Keytar on SL, accusing
someone of being the vampire, compiling the Illemonati Talent Show,
explaining the meaning of lvoe , or feeling extremely confused in
bygumitsathumb, they never fail to make me smile and make my life
complete. In the words of Nathan…"You guys never fail to make me feel
normal." I can tell you anything and I'm not judged. You are my best
friends in the world. I love you ALL.
There are a few more things I want to give thanks for.
I want to give thanks for Westminster Woods.
Last summer was one of the coolest weeks of my life. The Woods
provides not only a spiritual experience you can't get anywhere else,
but I also met some awesome friends and came back with a million
memories. There is something about the Woods that just…I can't describe
it. You can feel God there. There is something about laying under the
stars and singing that just brings this warmth into your heart, this
hope and this strength to keep going. I. Love. The. Woods.
I want to give thanks for rain. It washes away the old and opens up the new, giving me a fresh start and new heart.
I want to give thanks for books.
They convey everything…Love, pain, grief, self-exploration, weather,
war, peace…But mostly, a good book contains truth. It may not always be
something we want to hear but books reveal the smooth and the rough
spots in our lives. They provide a sanctuary when you're lost and a
pearl of wisdom when you're at a loss for what to do.
I want to give thanks for music.
I am thankful for the lyrics amazing people write that say the things
we try to say and can't quite say the way we'd like to. I am thankful
for the melodies that wrap us up, make us angry, make us happy, make us
sad, make us calm. I am thankful for the support music provides and the
way it brings life to any occupation. I am thankful for the way music
causes us to re-evaluate ourselves and the way we look at the world
around us. I am thankful for music for giving me my life.
I want to give thanks for my family. That's pretty self-explanatory.
I want to give thanks for Dennis Kucinich. He's my hero.
I want to give thanks for God
because if it weren't for Him, I'd have nothing to give thanks for.
He's the guy I'm giving thanks to. :P I wouldn't even be here. God
constantly shows us what the meaning of unconditional love really is.
I want to give thanks for you.
Whoever you are, I want to thank you for being a part of my life. I
promise you that you make it better, no matter what you do for me.
Thank you.
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